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Hey guys.
So sorry I haven't posted in a while. I've been kinda busy.
I'm sorry to do this to you guys, but I need to vent. Feel free to comment if you want. Some uplifting comments would be nice, but they aren't necessary.
So sorry I haven't gotten the next chapter of Falling For the Enemy up yet. I don't think I will be getting it up soon, and I'll tell you why.
The past month, I've had this wonderful boyfriend. He was sweet, handsome, fun to be around, and just perfect. I fell in love with him.
Then, last night, at around 11 o'clock, I got a text that I had not been expecting. He broke up with me.
Needless to say, I was shocked, and utterly heartbroken.
I cried for almost 2 hours.
He explained to me that he doesn't think he's ready for a relationship, and that he thinks we would be better as being "best friends."
Now those of you who have been in relationships know how hard that can be. Basically, he wants everything to be exactly the same as it was before, just minus the girlfriend boyfriend label and kissing.
I'm sure you can understand how hard that will be for me. I mean, I fell in love with this guy. This sweet, funny, handsome guy. I can't just turn around and pretend that never happened. And even though I never told him I loved him until it was too late, I can't forget how I felt.
So yeah, I'm going through my first break up right now. It was totally out of the blue.
He said he just didn't want a relationship anymore. I was super confused. He was the one who asked me to be his girlfriend after all.
He said he's not sure why he did that. He thinks maybe he was just a little excited to have his first girlfriend, or that he may have confused his feelings for being best friends with his feelings of a relationship. I don't really understand it right now, but I'm trying to.
I'm really hurting right now, but he says he still cares about me so much, and he doesn't want to lose me, ever. So, I'm going to try my best to get over my feelings for him so that we can be friends.
Honestly, this wouldn't be happening if I hadn't had a bad dream that he had broken up with me. I told him I had had a bad dream, so he called me asking what was wrong. I told him that I dreamed he had left me. Then, I couldn't really understand what he was saying, and then he hung up. I was really confused, and scared. And then I got the break up text, and he said he hadn't said anything over the phone because he didn't know how to say it.
That's when I started to cry, and I didn't stop until about 1 am.
I know, I must sound like such a crybaby right now. But my first break up is hurting me a lot. I never expected this. I thought he cared about me just as much as I cared about him. And as many times as he tells me that he does still care about me the same as he did before, he doesn't love me. I'm going to try to get over this, because as much as I am hurting right now, I don't want to lose him either. So I'm going to learn how to be friends with him.
Anyway, Thanks for listening to me.
I'll try and write some more for Falling for the Enemy. I doubt I'll be able to find any motivation to at the moment, but I'll do my best. I also have a lot of crafting stuff I have to do for my sorority. I'll be taking a little in the spring (for those of you don't know about that, it's difficult to explain, and not really the point of this journal, so I would appreciate not having to explain it.) (sorry if that sounded harsh, I'm having a bad day. I didn't sleep much last night).
So sorry I haven't posted in a while. I've been kinda busy.
I'm sorry to do this to you guys, but I need to vent. Feel free to comment if you want. Some uplifting comments would be nice, but they aren't necessary.
So sorry I haven't gotten the next chapter of Falling For the Enemy up yet. I don't think I will be getting it up soon, and I'll tell you why.
The past month, I've had this wonderful boyfriend. He was sweet, handsome, fun to be around, and just perfect. I fell in love with him.
Then, last night, at around 11 o'clock, I got a text that I had not been expecting. He broke up with me.
Needless to say, I was shocked, and utterly heartbroken.
I cried for almost 2 hours.
He explained to me that he doesn't think he's ready for a relationship, and that he thinks we would be better as being "best friends."
Now those of you who have been in relationships know how hard that can be. Basically, he wants everything to be exactly the same as it was before, just minus the girlfriend boyfriend label and kissing.
I'm sure you can understand how hard that will be for me. I mean, I fell in love with this guy. This sweet, funny, handsome guy. I can't just turn around and pretend that never happened. And even though I never told him I loved him until it was too late, I can't forget how I felt.
So yeah, I'm going through my first break up right now. It was totally out of the blue.
He said he just didn't want a relationship anymore. I was super confused. He was the one who asked me to be his girlfriend after all.
He said he's not sure why he did that. He thinks maybe he was just a little excited to have his first girlfriend, or that he may have confused his feelings for being best friends with his feelings of a relationship. I don't really understand it right now, but I'm trying to.
I'm really hurting right now, but he says he still cares about me so much, and he doesn't want to lose me, ever. So, I'm going to try my best to get over my feelings for him so that we can be friends.
Honestly, this wouldn't be happening if I hadn't had a bad dream that he had broken up with me. I told him I had had a bad dream, so he called me asking what was wrong. I told him that I dreamed he had left me. Then, I couldn't really understand what he was saying, and then he hung up. I was really confused, and scared. And then I got the break up text, and he said he hadn't said anything over the phone because he didn't know how to say it.
That's when I started to cry, and I didn't stop until about 1 am.
I know, I must sound like such a crybaby right now. But my first break up is hurting me a lot. I never expected this. I thought he cared about me just as much as I cared about him. And as many times as he tells me that he does still care about me the same as he did before, he doesn't love me. I'm going to try to get over this, because as much as I am hurting right now, I don't want to lose him either. So I'm going to learn how to be friends with him.
Anyway, Thanks for listening to me.
I'll try and write some more for Falling for the Enemy. I doubt I'll be able to find any motivation to at the moment, but I'll do my best. I also have a lot of crafting stuff I have to do for my sorority. I'll be taking a little in the spring (for those of you don't know about that, it's difficult to explain, and not really the point of this journal, so I would appreciate not having to explain it.) (sorry if that sounded harsh, I'm having a bad day. I didn't sleep much last night).
Plagiarism on Wattpad
Found someone on Wattpad who ripped off my Treasure Planet story. They changed a lot, but they literally took everything that I made unique or original about my story and copy pasted some parts word for word. So I'm understandably pissed off right now. If you wanna do me a favor, go shame this writer for stealing my work. It's guerrae on Wattpad. God, I wish there was a way to report plagiarism like that on Wattpad so it could get taken down. So frustrating! https://www.wattpad.com/story/182557379-treasure-planet
Wattpad
Hi guys! So I recently started reading on Wattpad, and I decided to add all my old stories on there (the finished ones anyway). If you guys ever want to head over there to reread or comment on them, feel free to! Anyway, that's all! Also, I have been working on another fanfiction. I will not be uploading it until I have finished it so it can be the best draft first time around for you guys (and I keep going back and adding stuff and changing things and I don't want to confuse my readers. I'll definitely drop a journal about it once I start posting. Let me know if you want me to post it to deviantart as well. I probably will, deviantart has been so difficult to navigate as of late, at least in my opinion. I wish I could narrow things down by type of art again like we used to be able to. Makes it easier to find exactly what your looking for. Anyway, just a PSA. I'll post another when I start uploading my new story! Until next time!
New Content!!!!
Y'all get ready! It has been like 6 years since I wrote anything, and the inspiration bug has hit me hard! And I mean hard! I have begun to write a new story and I will be posting it here soon, as well as on Fanfiction.net and Wattpad. You guys get ready because I am so pumped! So y'all better get pumped! I will post links to the other sites stories as well so you may read it on the site of your choosing. I'm excited y'all!
Venting
Hi guys. I know it's been a long time, and I've been busing adulting and all that, but tonight I am here to vent. I will admit, I am more than just a little drunk and feeling somewhat emotional right now. And turning to the internet is probably not the best idea, but here I am. Some of the terminalogy I am about to use centers around Sorority culture, so sorry if you don't understand. So since I graduated undergrad, me, my big, and my grandbig (gbig) have been drifting apart. for the first 2 years after I graduated, I tried so hard to keep them included in my life and to keep in touch and do stuff together. I was often turned down, ignored, or blown off. (They claim they didn't get a lot of my messages, Idk how much I believe that, tbh). Anyway, about 2 years ago, I finally hit my limit and realized how miserable I was making myself by being so hurt by their absolute disregard for my feelings. So I decided to stop trying and just live my life as best as I could. This was hard for me,
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I'm so sorry to hear this! He shouldn't have used you and should have figured out his feelings before he decided to date you so this wouldn't happen. I hope you guys can still be friends, but I understand how it's going to hurt for a while.